"I dislike you very much." "I like you."

I have no one to talk to about these kinds of things ;__;
Time literally felt like it was catching its breath. I felt a tingle go through my arms and my legs and my chest as it eventually braked its speed and slowly constricted itself around my heart. Ha, there's no way he really likes me. Maybe just as a person. Maybe as a decent enough human being even though I've been trying to drill it into his head that we're all lowly unworthy people (probably unsuccessfully). Maybe as someone dateable if circumstances were different.

I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know anything

Is this really my life right now? God, what's happening to me and my life ?

You know a lot about me but I question how much you understand me. Is this all that I am?

TL;DR - I got really girly.